“It’s a balancing act, juggling kids and work”
Heard this before? Today just feels too hard, more like a three ring circus with clowns throwing cream pies in my face and mad carnival music blaring in the background. I’m feeling really sick of trying to ‘make it work’, find a balance, be all things to all people. *Sigh* does anyone else ever feel like this?
Today, I left home at 6.20 to get into (paid) work. My saint of a husband has the job of getting the two little ones to Playcentre and the nanny. To compound his usual morning stress, we have overseas family coming to stay tonight so he had to fend off DS1′s attempts to trash the house, while making beds, packing bags, and clearing dishes. While all this is going on, I’ve been working away at my computer for a solid couple of hours already. So the story goes…. he’s got them both in the car, runs down to the house to grab the bags, comes back up and DS1 has vomitted his weetbix all of the car. Great! He unpacks them, runs everyone through the shower, changes, and cleans up the car. Rings me – “what should I do?”.
Bother bother blast and lots of other much more rude words, I think.
Now that Plan A has been copiously puked on, enter Plan B.
DD3 is fine, she can go to Playcentre. DH and DS1 will come and pick me up from town and I’ll work from home. Rescheduling 4 meetings is a small price to pay right?
DH loads them back into the car and drives down to Playcentre. DD3 does a flying leap from the car and headbutts the pavement. Copious tears are added to the copious vomit. DS1 vomits again. Gross.
They finally arrive to pick me up at 10.30. I’ve been working for nearly 4 hours. I’m tired. I’m worried for my wee boy. I’m worried for my wee girl, although her head is fine apparently. I’m worried because the nanny has been queasy all weekend but assures me she’s fine. Should I take them both home with me? If I just have DS I can put him down for his sleep and actually get some work done as I’m officially not on leave. Will DD be happier with me at home but parked in front of the evil babysitter the TV? Or happier with the nanny? What if the nanny gets sick? What if she has a head injury? What if I am slowly going crazy but everyone is too kind to tell me??
*Sigh* (again). I cannot stress how sick I am of this particular juggle. I actually quite like multi-tasking, problem solving, and change. But just not of this variety. It only strengthens my desire to be at home with my darlings full-time next year.
Days like today are very motivating!
How did the rest of your day pan out?
I’m not sure what is in the water….it would even make sense if someone said it was a full moon…because I have heard from a lot of mothers this week who have been having some really trying days.
On days like this, you really don’t know how you ever will get through it without pulling all your hair out, or collapsing from emotional and physical exhastion.
You will read this post later on and wonder how you ever got through it….but you did and you and your hubby are amazing for that.
Let’s hope the crazy days are behind us, and we can go back to normality (whatever that looks like?!?!) hehehe
*hugs*